Downgrade

Finally Dad pop the question, "Shall we downgrade?"

This was the first week after seeing the article on someone selling their 5 room flat in our district on the papers last weekend for 720k.

Someone actually preampt me that this might be coming and true enough, it only takes a few days before this expectation was realised.

I din like the idea of moving simple because its rather ridiculous. I somehow do not think that they will stay together long when i marry (that is when i marry) so why should we even bother to change?

Somehow, i ponder a lot on such questions, "why are they still together when obviously, they dun tok? Can't they move on individually with their own lives separately?" And the more i think about it, the more i do not want to be the spark that starts the separation.

Maybe, just maybe, i think too much. Should have let it go but how to when im in this house as well?

Then i thought about getting married. But im not certain that i want to settle down with him. Not sure its because i do not want to marry or he's not the one i want to marry? When soo many uncertainties are pondering me, i can't make a choice.

Hate it when i get myself in such a situation. I simply think too much. Yet i can't control my thoughts. How?

Help....