Please practise what you say.....sell the house.....go find your friends who care more about you....and stop whining, complaining about the whole world and us...im really sick of your incapability, your whining of being poor, your claiming of doing something....everything....
Havent you learn the fact that complaining doesnt help. 10 long years...more than that.....
Monday, March 31, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Visit at the Singapore Zoological Gardens
Have not visited the zoo for a few years i think. The last time went was with BC.
I went together with J n J team. Luckily, Joey wasnt too grouchy today. Suprisingly, she was very lively. hehe.
We took a train to CCK and catch 927 to the zoo from the CCK interchange. The bus was slow as we waited for almost half an hour before the bus arrived.
The weather was sunny and it was hot when we arrived at the zoo. Not wasting anytime, we went in immediately and i was snapping away on my camera and almost every little thing seen. We were trying to catch the shows.
We started the day watching Elephants at Asia, then walked around the zoo to catch all in all, 3 shows i think.
The gals were not hungry as they had MacDonald's breakfast and hence, we did not have any food there. I was starving! Luckily, i had a bread in a bag that tamed my tummy down a little at 2+ while watching the show at the Splash Amphitheatre.
The zoo had renovation around and hence, we did not go to the Children's world.
At 3+, thunder sounded and it was really time to hurry out before we get drenched.
We did some shopping at CCK Lot 1 and lunch + dinner at Ajisen at 4-5pm. Aiyo, weird time to eat.
We parted around 6+ and left for home.
It was a day well spent. We had our laughters and fun. I had a lot of fun taking A LOT of photos. 180+ i think....haha crazy me.
Have fun watching the photos....
I went together with J n J team. Luckily, Joey wasnt too grouchy today. Suprisingly, she was very lively. hehe.
We took a train to CCK and catch 927 to the zoo from the CCK interchange. The bus was slow as we waited for almost half an hour before the bus arrived.
The weather was sunny and it was hot when we arrived at the zoo. Not wasting anytime, we went in immediately and i was snapping away on my camera and almost every little thing seen. We were trying to catch the shows.
We started the day watching Elephants at Asia, then walked around the zoo to catch all in all, 3 shows i think.
The gals were not hungry as they had MacDonald's breakfast and hence, we did not have any food there. I was starving! Luckily, i had a bread in a bag that tamed my tummy down a little at 2+ while watching the show at the Splash Amphitheatre.
The zoo had renovation around and hence, we did not go to the Children's world.
At 3+, thunder sounded and it was really time to hurry out before we get drenched.
We did some shopping at CCK Lot 1 and lunch + dinner at Ajisen at 4-5pm. Aiyo, weird time to eat.
We parted around 6+ and left for home.
It was a day well spent. We had our laughters and fun. I had a lot of fun taking A LOT of photos. 180+ i think....haha crazy me.
Have fun watching the photos....
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| Visit to Singapore Zoological Gardens |
Part 2 present given....
I finally finished part two of Adelyn's bday present.
I made her a video photo montage. Photos from our days in Tinybox, till going to Bangkok with Roy, till going KL Stream cafe, the many KTV sessions and finally, the day spent celebrating her birthday.
I gave her the video on a pre-printed CD with the words "Stay sweet always"
I really hope she likes it. Cos i will be very touched if i received such a gift as well. Simple and sweet gift....hehe
She went home after guitar class that day and message me the following morning, "hey gal, thanks for the touching montage! i watched a few times yesterday and makes me feel so special"
Im glad she likes it. I liked it as well.....
This is what i call, simple happiness.
I made her a video photo montage. Photos from our days in Tinybox, till going to Bangkok with Roy, till going KL Stream cafe, the many KTV sessions and finally, the day spent celebrating her birthday.
I gave her the video on a pre-printed CD with the words "Stay sweet always"
I really hope she likes it. Cos i will be very touched if i received such a gift as well. Simple and sweet gift....hehe
She went home after guitar class that day and message me the following morning, "hey gal, thanks for the touching montage! i watched a few times yesterday and makes me feel so special"
Im glad she likes it. I liked it as well.....
This is what i call, simple happiness.
Another realisation.....
Went to visit Bernard's new born at KK hospital with the team.
When we reached there, the wife could recognise Janise and when she suddenly realise that i am Clara, i felt weird. I think its my conscience pricking me. The sabotage incident.
How will they look at me now that she knows i am the One.
Can't do anything to that. Skip that thought.
But suddenly, when i held Ryan in my arms, i felt a simple happiness.
And suddenly, i realised that i must have been hard on myself. Very. That i forget that happiness can be soo simple. As long as the family works together.
As long as my team and I worked together.
I need time to sort out my thoughts. My life. To get my simple happiness.
Go for it!!!
When we reached there, the wife could recognise Janise and when she suddenly realise that i am Clara, i felt weird. I think its my conscience pricking me. The sabotage incident.
How will they look at me now that she knows i am the One.
Can't do anything to that. Skip that thought.
But suddenly, when i held Ryan in my arms, i felt a simple happiness.
And suddenly, i realised that i must have been hard on myself. Very. That i forget that happiness can be soo simple. As long as the family works together.
As long as my team and I worked together.
I need time to sort out my thoughts. My life. To get my simple happiness.
Go for it!!!
Another uncertainty
Mum told me today that company and her department is going through re-structuring.
She might be re-trenched.
She told me to be prepared to take care of her. In a joking way.
Im not that worried that my mum will solely be dependent on me, but something just came to realisation.
That if one day, they could not earn money, and still needs to pay for the house, what's gonna happen. We have only consider what to do when they are sick. Sis bought dad insurance and mum has her own. But we forgot about the other important thing that is the shelter and livelihood.
Opps. I need to think.
She might be re-trenched.
She told me to be prepared to take care of her. In a joking way.
Im not that worried that my mum will solely be dependent on me, but something just came to realisation.
That if one day, they could not earn money, and still needs to pay for the house, what's gonna happen. We have only consider what to do when they are sick. Sis bought dad insurance and mum has her own. But we forgot about the other important thing that is the shelter and livelihood.
Opps. I need to think.
$$$$ again
He called. Sounded "pathetic" and ask to borrow a hundred bucks.
Again.
I do not understand. He now has a relief driver. They share the burden to pay the daily rental. He has more rest time. And yet, he needs to borrow again.
I do not like this at all. Not when he sounded pathetic and keep using "pls" when he needs cash and scold you when he's not happy next. Loser. I truely think so.
Filial Piety. How far should we go? Can we always sit on the fence at bad times? How bad is bad before we can and should help?
There's no definite answer.
Do not like this grey area.
Im just learning to remain positive and hope the best for him. There's only soo much i can do.
Again.
I do not understand. He now has a relief driver. They share the burden to pay the daily rental. He has more rest time. And yet, he needs to borrow again.
I do not like this at all. Not when he sounded pathetic and keep using "pls" when he needs cash and scold you when he's not happy next. Loser. I truely think so.
Filial Piety. How far should we go? Can we always sit on the fence at bad times? How bad is bad before we can and should help?
There's no definite answer.
Do not like this grey area.
Im just learning to remain positive and hope the best for him. There's only soo much i can do.
A simple reply. Felt good.
Had lunch with brian today.
This is the first time we had lunch together during my office lunch hours. It was a simple lunch. A simple exchange of thoughts. A simple update of each other's well being and all. Though we meet almost every thursday for Swing Fling, we din tok much about other matter outside dancing.
After the lunch, he sent me a sms at night.
"Good lunch. Enjoyed spending time with you today"
I felt good reading this. Never thought brian would send such a sms. He changed a lot over the years. And i gradually appreciate talking to him better. It was a more heart to heart talk. True feelings and sincerity. He was more open, i was more sensitive to my choice of words and overall it felt good. Though its just an hour, its time well spent.
I need to learn to listen more, be more open to other's thinking and be more sensitive. Ganbatte
We talk about
This is the first time we had lunch together during my office lunch hours. It was a simple lunch. A simple exchange of thoughts. A simple update of each other's well being and all. Though we meet almost every thursday for Swing Fling, we din tok much about other matter outside dancing.
After the lunch, he sent me a sms at night.
"Good lunch. Enjoyed spending time with you today"
I felt good reading this. Never thought brian would send such a sms. He changed a lot over the years. And i gradually appreciate talking to him better. It was a more heart to heart talk. True feelings and sincerity. He was more open, i was more sensitive to my choice of words and overall it felt good. Though its just an hour, its time well spent.
I need to learn to listen more, be more open to other's thinking and be more sensitive. Ganbatte
We talk about
How are you.....
i sent him an sms.......
i wondered how he is, and hence i sent him a message. I do not know if it is a good choice, but i just wanted to hear that he is coping well....i seriously hope though i know the answer
He replied. He was shocked. Shocked that i initiate an sms since the last 2months. "Wow" he said.
He is not ok. He said, "I've lost my loved one and i cant do anything to that. Something missing in my heart"
I expected such a reply. He did not have friends that he could confide in. And i guess, its really not his character to confide in others.
"Still alive and kicking. Like walking zombie" he continued. Sounds bad.
I din like the message i received. But what could i do. I hope the best for him.
And he finally ended with "I should not spend time on someone who doesnt want to spend time with me"
.........what should i say? what could i say? Is the statement fair? I don't know.
I had a drink with Meiling earlier on. Am feeling unclear and tired due to the alcohol.
I cant judge...i dun think i can even without the alcohol. I chose not to reply. Because i don't know what to reply. I dozed off...
I woke up, a little blur. I thought of the sms yesterday. I try to evaluate the statement. How true it is? I really do not know.
In the end, i chose to leave it as it is. Let time evaluate it for me
i wondered how he is, and hence i sent him a message. I do not know if it is a good choice, but i just wanted to hear that he is coping well....i seriously hope though i know the answer
He replied. He was shocked. Shocked that i initiate an sms since the last 2months. "Wow" he said.
He is not ok. He said, "I've lost my loved one and i cant do anything to that. Something missing in my heart"
I expected such a reply. He did not have friends that he could confide in. And i guess, its really not his character to confide in others.
"Still alive and kicking. Like walking zombie" he continued. Sounds bad.
I din like the message i received. But what could i do. I hope the best for him.
And he finally ended with "I should not spend time on someone who doesnt want to spend time with me"
.........what should i say? what could i say? Is the statement fair? I don't know.
I had a drink with Meiling earlier on. Am feeling unclear and tired due to the alcohol.
I cant judge...i dun think i can even without the alcohol. I chose not to reply. Because i don't know what to reply. I dozed off...
I woke up, a little blur. I thought of the sms yesterday. I try to evaluate the statement. How true it is? I really do not know.
In the end, i chose to leave it as it is. Let time evaluate it for me
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Other Photos i wana share
My first time soo lucky
If you play mahjong, this set of cards is great......and of cos i won the game
Jiaen's gift from Japan
See how many cute stuff this little girl bought.....
A snapshot of Fullerton Hotel at night
Took this when i passed by.....nice shot i thought.
Eventful March
This March is filled with celebrations......lots of photos taken......
Linda and Elisa's birthday
Started with Elisa's and Linda's Bday....Bought both of them a bouquet of flowers. Had fun deceiving Elisa as though i bought both bouquets on the same day and time, i delibrately ask the receptionist to leave Elisa's bouquet at her table first. As Linda's birthday was just a day past, giving Elisa the bouquet first will keep her in suspense as to who send her the flowers....Indeed, this little gal was tricked...haha....
Adelyn's birthday
A little surprise for her.....and me as well....haha....wanted to buy her a guitar book but boy, its soo hard to buy....cos the one that i wanted to buy, was not available at Kino or any bookstore. Tried my luck at Bras Basah and sigh....couldnt find it. In the end, seek Jianhua's help to see if he got lobang. But alas.....till Friday, the day im meeting Adelyn and Jianhua to see Olivia's gig at Esplanade's Mosaic Festival, i still have not bought it. Kan Cheong liao, i sms Jianhua to see if he managed to come across the book. Nope. Sigh....The next thing i know, he called me at 6+ and told me he found the book. So he bought the book and even wrapped it at MPH so that Adelyn would not know where we bought it....Never thought he would have gone the extra mile. So in the end, it become a joint present for Adelyn....hehe....Adelyn was shocked. Shocked that we are giving her something. Cos she thought i would give her present the next day when we are meeting RB and the rest.
Anyway, on the following day, i couldnt rush her part 2 present for her in time. (couldnt state what it is here cos she is reading my blog so...i'll probably post it here when i have given to her....) We had dinner at Swe Ling and then KTV.....We had fun and William is soo funny when he impersonate Yang Zong Wei and all....really enjoyed myself
The twin's wedding
My JC mate who happens to be twins are getting married on the same day! SOo exciting.....its my first malay wedding. We went after going to Shirong's bb full month (din take photos there...sigh). Here are the photos. Are you able to spot the difference?
Sanip's son's wedding
Just went a colleague's son's wedding...nice... but luckily i din go alone....cos no one else there i know.....phew
Linda and Elisa's birthday
Started with Elisa's and Linda's Bday....Bought both of them a bouquet of flowers. Had fun deceiving Elisa as though i bought both bouquets on the same day and time, i delibrately ask the receptionist to leave Elisa's bouquet at her table first. As Linda's birthday was just a day past, giving Elisa the bouquet first will keep her in suspense as to who send her the flowers....Indeed, this little gal was tricked...haha....
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| Linda and Elisa's birthday |
Adelyn's birthday
A little surprise for her.....and me as well....haha....wanted to buy her a guitar book but boy, its soo hard to buy....cos the one that i wanted to buy, was not available at Kino or any bookstore. Tried my luck at Bras Basah and sigh....couldnt find it. In the end, seek Jianhua's help to see if he got lobang. But alas.....till Friday, the day im meeting Adelyn and Jianhua to see Olivia's gig at Esplanade's Mosaic Festival, i still have not bought it. Kan Cheong liao, i sms Jianhua to see if he managed to come across the book. Nope. Sigh....The next thing i know, he called me at 6+ and told me he found the book. So he bought the book and even wrapped it at MPH so that Adelyn would not know where we bought it....Never thought he would have gone the extra mile. So in the end, it become a joint present for Adelyn....hehe....Adelyn was shocked. Shocked that we are giving her something. Cos she thought i would give her present the next day when we are meeting RB and the rest.
Anyway, on the following day, i couldnt rush her part 2 present for her in time. (couldnt state what it is here cos she is reading my blog so...i'll probably post it here when i have given to her....) We had dinner at Swe Ling and then KTV.....We had fun and William is soo funny when he impersonate Yang Zong Wei and all....really enjoyed myself
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| Adelyn's birthday celebratio |
The twin's wedding
My JC mate who happens to be twins are getting married on the same day! SOo exciting.....its my first malay wedding. We went after going to Shirong's bb full month (din take photos there...sigh). Here are the photos. Are you able to spot the difference?
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| Izhar Izwan Wedding |
Sanip's son's wedding
Just went a colleague's son's wedding...nice... but luckily i din go alone....cos no one else there i know.....phew
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| Sanip's Son's wedding |
Rayve's getting married!!!
Haha, this guy is getting married. His wife is a Filipino. Duno where he got to know her cos din interview him. But we shared and bought him something.....
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| Rayve's wedding gift |
Coming up next......J & J is going zoo with me this coming saturday.....hehe....more photos then....
Opps, i did it again, again and AGAIN
Well, to my five star friend, here's the apology that i've promised.....
Yes, i did it again. And for 3 times. Sort of.
The first time
- BC msg me to have lunch with me. I was ok. I was sure. So i promised......at 10+ i think. Then, at 11+, lunch was here. I took the lunch, then somehow, wanted to check my phone....a new message...."Im here.....wru?" ARHHHHH.......die.....i have a lunch presentation and i forgotten about it! So i rushed down to meet BC and told him that i've eatten. Poor boy being nice and understanding, told me to rush back to attend the lunch presentation. That's the first
The second time
- wrote this on the previous entry on "a bad day"
The third and hopefully the last
- Was arranging with ah xia to watch "Leap years". "Set. Monday" i exclaimed. On Monday, she called me to confirm the date and she bought the tickets at Vivo. Told her that its the safest IN CASE i cant leave on the dot, considering Vivo is the nearest cinema to my office. Just 10mins walk away. Suddenly, at 5+, my 'bird' brain remembered that i have a briefing at 6.15pm. Shucks! The show is at 6.50pm. I was soo sure i could leave on the dot. Die. I called ah xia and confessed. She was kind enough....nagged at me and i promised to be there as soon as possible. i Cant believe it. Jessie sent me a note to remind us of the briefing tonight and i even acknowledged it prior dating ah xia. I rushed off immediately to meet her. She was soo kind to wait outside the cinema for me with my favourite popcorn and a drink. I reached at 7.10pm. Luckily, she just nagged at me. How can i forget your kindness.......
I guess i must be really lucky to have such friends. Forgiving friends.....And my crowned 5 star friend....IM sorry and sooo thankful to have you guys with me.
Thank you for being there for me these days and ah xian's AC msn message "We all like you..." (Soo sweet) and ah xia's acknowledgement on the pain i have.....
谢谢你们！！！
Yes, i did it again. And for 3 times. Sort of.
The first time
- BC msg me to have lunch with me. I was ok. I was sure. So i promised......at 10+ i think. Then, at 11+, lunch was here. I took the lunch, then somehow, wanted to check my phone....a new message...."Im here.....wru?" ARHHHHH.......die.....i have a lunch presentation and i forgotten about it! So i rushed down to meet BC and told him that i've eatten. Poor boy being nice and understanding, told me to rush back to attend the lunch presentation. That's the first
The second time
- wrote this on the previous entry on "a bad day"
The third and hopefully the last
- Was arranging with ah xia to watch "Leap years". "Set. Monday" i exclaimed. On Monday, she called me to confirm the date and she bought the tickets at Vivo. Told her that its the safest IN CASE i cant leave on the dot, considering Vivo is the nearest cinema to my office. Just 10mins walk away. Suddenly, at 5+, my 'bird' brain remembered that i have a briefing at 6.15pm. Shucks! The show is at 6.50pm. I was soo sure i could leave on the dot. Die. I called ah xia and confessed. She was kind enough....nagged at me and i promised to be there as soon as possible. i Cant believe it. Jessie sent me a note to remind us of the briefing tonight and i even acknowledged it prior dating ah xia. I rushed off immediately to meet her. She was soo kind to wait outside the cinema for me with my favourite popcorn and a drink. I reached at 7.10pm. Luckily, she just nagged at me. How can i forget your kindness.......
I guess i must be really lucky to have such friends. Forgiving friends.....And my crowned 5 star friend....IM sorry and sooo thankful to have you guys with me.
Thank you for being there for me these days and ah xian's AC msn message "We all like you..." (Soo sweet) and ah xia's acknowledgement on the pain i have.....
谢谢你们！！！
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Thank you and im sorry
This entry is dedicated to a man who loves me soo much and one, i couldnt give him the happiness he desires
Thank you for everything that you have done for me. The monthly gifts, the flowers, picking me up from MRT, giving me the support to go singing and whatever i do. I've grown to be someone who is able to do all the things i enjoy, because of the space that you have given me. Although till now, i couldnt differentiate if that is your unconditional love or my stubborn to change that resulted in the space and freedom you have given me, i really want to thank you. Because of the space you have given me, im able to do what i enjoyed, ie music but unknowingly, it drawned both of us further from each other.
In all the six years we've been together, I'm really sorry. I've not been a good girlfriend. Not being nice enough to you, spending enough time with you and many many that i could not think of.
It is painful, very, to let go of someone who has been my hidden pillar of strength. But i needed to do what i needed. Its not fair to bind you like this and i needed something else. It's never my intention to end it this way and i've really given deep thoughts before i decided to let go.
Please forgive me.
You really deserve someone who treasure you more.
Although it will probably take a very long time for both of us to recover, we will get through this, become stronger, and meet someone better and more suitable for each of us....i strongly believe.
Thank you for everything that you have done for me. The monthly gifts, the flowers, picking me up from MRT, giving me the support to go singing and whatever i do. I've grown to be someone who is able to do all the things i enjoy, because of the space that you have given me. Although till now, i couldnt differentiate if that is your unconditional love or my stubborn to change that resulted in the space and freedom you have given me, i really want to thank you. Because of the space you have given me, im able to do what i enjoyed, ie music but unknowingly, it drawned both of us further from each other.
In all the six years we've been together, I'm really sorry. I've not been a good girlfriend. Not being nice enough to you, spending enough time with you and many many that i could not think of.
It is painful, very, to let go of someone who has been my hidden pillar of strength. But i needed to do what i needed. Its not fair to bind you like this and i needed something else. It's never my intention to end it this way and i've really given deep thoughts before i decided to let go.
Please forgive me.
You really deserve someone who treasure you more.
Although it will probably take a very long time for both of us to recover, we will get through this, become stronger, and meet someone better and more suitable for each of us....i strongly believe.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Help! I need space
It has been 1 and a half month of my new status. The pain starts to sink in. Pain of a failed relationship. One that i have procrastinated and complained for 2 long years before finally deciding to let go.
It took me a very long time to tell myself that "No, it din work. Get out of your comfy zone" and i did.
However, it did not seem as easy as it looks. I looked ok. Im not. I just happen to be busy and din want to think about it.
A simple sms from sis "Felt sad after reading your blog" i fight soo hard to hold my tears.....
Fern and weizhen hug me that day, i couldnt hold back any longer, i cried.....briefly......
All my tears, reminded me of the failed relationship and the sad fact that massive changes come only after the breakup. It is very heartache. And i do not have the energy to have such changes only after a breakup. How many times must i experience such things before things really change. I'm tired.
My logical self tells me that given my character, i would have told him all my complains. And it is precisely like this that i think i have failed badly. Being direct din help things. I must cut off all 'ties' before he gets it. My goodness.
His massive attempts to try all he could now proves to be very emotionally draining for me. I need space. The more he try, the more sad i am. I have lost the confidence to start again. No, i cant do it again and i don't want to.
I remember i said this before, sometimes, no matter what one do, things will not change. Because it has gone a long way before this ending and it has been very taxing to make the decision. 潇洒一点。Its hard but we need to learn the hard way.
Thank you for all that you have done. But its too late.
It took me a very long time to tell myself that "No, it din work. Get out of your comfy zone" and i did.
However, it did not seem as easy as it looks. I looked ok. Im not. I just happen to be busy and din want to think about it.
A simple sms from sis "Felt sad after reading your blog" i fight soo hard to hold my tears.....
Fern and weizhen hug me that day, i couldnt hold back any longer, i cried.....briefly......
All my tears, reminded me of the failed relationship and the sad fact that massive changes come only after the breakup. It is very heartache. And i do not have the energy to have such changes only after a breakup. How many times must i experience such things before things really change. I'm tired.
My logical self tells me that given my character, i would have told him all my complains. And it is precisely like this that i think i have failed badly. Being direct din help things. I must cut off all 'ties' before he gets it. My goodness.
His massive attempts to try all he could now proves to be very emotionally draining for me. I need space. The more he try, the more sad i am. I have lost the confidence to start again. No, i cant do it again and i don't want to.
I remember i said this before, sometimes, no matter what one do, things will not change. Because it has gone a long way before this ending and it has been very taxing to make the decision. 潇洒一点。Its hard but we need to learn the hard way.
Thank you for all that you have done. But its too late.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
平常心
Was going through amei's this song, and find the lyrics very meaningful. I start to understand the lyrics better. Some of the lyrics applies to my feelings towards relationship...
街道静得刺耳 夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前 先上车 不会不舍
承认我是弱者 不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得 不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静 是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心 不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静 是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍 才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年的快乐 只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵 是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合 我非走不可
街道静得刺耳 夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前 先上车 不会不舍
承认我是弱者 不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得 不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静 是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心 不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静 是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍 才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年的快乐 只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵 是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合 我非走不可
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
A bad day......
I thought i wanted to spend the day in a beautiful way by dressing nice nice, wear nice nice, wear high heel shoes, to boost my confidence. Its true that when you dress nicely, it starts your day in a pretty way. And hence with that thought in mind, i wore my 2 inches high new shoes and got to work.
1st obstacle. I should have bite my new shoes before wearing it. Yes, it bite me. Badly. Resulted in 3 torn skin and 3 plasters on my poor toes.
Then im soo glad that i got a chance to go back to my desk to work.
2nd obstacle. It did not last long. Shelby was on medical leave and i had to sit in in another team's travel desk. Argh...when will i get to sit at my desk for the WHOLE day. Been 'floating' as a consultant in the office for a long coming 2 weeks. And when i sit in, it only means, you cover other duties....and ADD your own duties!
Well, of course, i did not want to be too suck into the unhappiness. I just tell myself, its one day only. Then i decided that since today is Wednesday and Mum is going line dancing which means no dinner, i'll find someone to accompany to the movie. I wana watch L change (Death note 3) but sigh, no one wants to watch. So in the end, alternative is to watch another show that HX will accompany to watch (MX has class today)
Had to call MX to ensure she do not watch this particular show that we wana watch tonight and hence, called her and HX to check out.
Finally decided on 10,000 BC and gotten MX to purchase the ticket online for us as i wana save 50cents for using HSBC card. I remembered someone collected the tickets via AXS machine WITHOUT using my card and hence, didn't think it will be much of a problem when MX is not going together with us.
HX msg me to leave office at 6.30pm cos i have a tendency to be late and the show is at 7.10pm!
3rd obstacle. Got caught by my colleague to handle a knotty ticket reissuance and hence left office at 6.50pm. Shucks. HX will kill me.
I called her to go to the AXS machine to get the tix first but ALAS
4th obstable. No credit card. No tickets to be collected for the online purchase. Fxxx
I have the email confirmation with me. I need to try my luck
Sis sms me "feel sad after reading your blog" its the Vday entry she meant. I teared.....i feel sad too. Sad for being mean to myself. Almost cried when i was rushing to TB to meet HX.
5th obstacle. Reached TB. Saw a black face. Sian. But i know that there is nothing i could do. I need to salvage the situation. I sms MX to tell her and in case i need to call her later to verify the credit card details.
Went to the counter with the email confirmation. Felt sian. I better be able to get the tickets or i will be killed by HX. It was raining. She have a running nose. She's coming from home and needs to walk a distance to reach MRT. Her fren is late. She runs into the possibility of no tickets for a show she rush down in the rain. Shit.
Phew. I talk to the counter staff and ask she could do anything. The manager came, gave authorisation, i got my tix. Went into the cinema at 7.15pm. God bless show have not started. So not the end of the world.
And hence, we managed to watch the show. Moral of the story. Dun be late when you meet someone esp when the person is not feeling well, the weather is wet, we need to catch a movie, buy tickets online with your own credit card or make sure you can collect tickets without the credit card!
We finish the show and went dinner at LJS. My goodness. 4 person at the counter, 1 cashier open only, manager was counting cash at a cashier, others were looking away. Service? Bad!
When the food was ordered, HX had to wait almost 10mins for her food. Bad. Bad. Bad.
Overall, the show was not bad. A little humor here and there. But the show wasnt the concentration in this entry.
Anyway, he just sms me. "I love you, not only for what you are, but for what i am when i am with you. Good Night." Sigh.....droplets of tears run down my face......
1st obstacle. I should have bite my new shoes before wearing it. Yes, it bite me. Badly. Resulted in 3 torn skin and 3 plasters on my poor toes.
Then im soo glad that i got a chance to go back to my desk to work.
2nd obstacle. It did not last long. Shelby was on medical leave and i had to sit in in another team's travel desk. Argh...when will i get to sit at my desk for the WHOLE day. Been 'floating' as a consultant in the office for a long coming 2 weeks. And when i sit in, it only means, you cover other duties....and ADD your own duties!
Well, of course, i did not want to be too suck into the unhappiness. I just tell myself, its one day only. Then i decided that since today is Wednesday and Mum is going line dancing which means no dinner, i'll find someone to accompany to the movie. I wana watch L change (Death note 3) but sigh, no one wants to watch. So in the end, alternative is to watch another show that HX will accompany to watch (MX has class today)
Had to call MX to ensure she do not watch this particular show that we wana watch tonight and hence, called her and HX to check out.
Finally decided on 10,000 BC and gotten MX to purchase the ticket online for us as i wana save 50cents for using HSBC card. I remembered someone collected the tickets via AXS machine WITHOUT using my card and hence, didn't think it will be much of a problem when MX is not going together with us.
HX msg me to leave office at 6.30pm cos i have a tendency to be late and the show is at 7.10pm!
3rd obstacle. Got caught by my colleague to handle a knotty ticket reissuance and hence left office at 6.50pm. Shucks. HX will kill me.
I called her to go to the AXS machine to get the tix first but ALAS
4th obstable. No credit card. No tickets to be collected for the online purchase. Fxxx
I have the email confirmation with me. I need to try my luck
Sis sms me "feel sad after reading your blog" its the Vday entry she meant. I teared.....i feel sad too. Sad for being mean to myself. Almost cried when i was rushing to TB to meet HX.
5th obstacle. Reached TB. Saw a black face. Sian. But i know that there is nothing i could do. I need to salvage the situation. I sms MX to tell her and in case i need to call her later to verify the credit card details.
Went to the counter with the email confirmation. Felt sian. I better be able to get the tickets or i will be killed by HX. It was raining. She have a running nose. She's coming from home and needs to walk a distance to reach MRT. Her fren is late. She runs into the possibility of no tickets for a show she rush down in the rain. Shit.
Phew. I talk to the counter staff and ask she could do anything. The manager came, gave authorisation, i got my tix. Went into the cinema at 7.15pm. God bless show have not started. So not the end of the world.
And hence, we managed to watch the show. Moral of the story. Dun be late when you meet someone esp when the person is not feeling well, the weather is wet, we need to catch a movie, buy tickets online with your own credit card or make sure you can collect tickets without the credit card!
We finish the show and went dinner at LJS. My goodness. 4 person at the counter, 1 cashier open only, manager was counting cash at a cashier, others were looking away. Service? Bad!
When the food was ordered, HX had to wait almost 10mins for her food. Bad. Bad. Bad.
Overall, the show was not bad. A little humor here and there. But the show wasnt the concentration in this entry.
Anyway, he just sms me. "I love you, not only for what you are, but for what i am when i am with you. Good Night." Sigh.....droplets of tears run down my face......
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Valentine day 2008
Well this year, after 6 consecutive years, is the first time i'm spending it as a single. I couldn't remember if i did anything that day, but if im not wrong, i just work. (I think so)
Told him not to send me a gift or flowers.
Hence that day, no flowers came. My receptionist ask "Clara, no flowers for you this year?" and hence, it lead to another declaration of my changed status.
Im not particular sad but just "normal"?
Anyway, in the end, he did send me a gift. He made me something. He rememberer me saying that in the later years of our relationship, he starts to buy stuff only. I like handmade stuff. It shows the extra thought in the gift. HE used to make me a lot of handmade gifts. LED christmas tree mounted to the circuit board, self made vase, handmade paper flower, handcrafted stones on our monthly anniversary.....
And i guess that is why he made an extra effort this time. I dunno
He sent me a cassette tape and a handmade card.
Sang me 3 songs and told me about how he fall in love with me......
I cried. It came late.......very late.....
However, i'm blissed. Cos he still loves me and wants me back.
Its a feeling of being wanted.
But like i say, it came late..........
Told him not to send me a gift or flowers.
Hence that day, no flowers came. My receptionist ask "Clara, no flowers for you this year?" and hence, it lead to another declaration of my changed status.
Im not particular sad but just "normal"?
Anyway, in the end, he did send me a gift. He made me something. He rememberer me saying that in the later years of our relationship, he starts to buy stuff only. I like handmade stuff. It shows the extra thought in the gift. HE used to make me a lot of handmade gifts. LED christmas tree mounted to the circuit board, self made vase, handmade paper flower, handcrafted stones on our monthly anniversary.....
And i guess that is why he made an extra effort this time. I dunno
He sent me a cassette tape and a handmade card.
Sang me 3 songs and told me about how he fall in love with me......
I cried. It came late.......very late.....
However, i'm blissed. Cos he still loves me and wants me back.
Its a feeling of being wanted.
But like i say, it came late..........
Sea Jam 2008
This year, my cute guy is back!!! (argh...to all those who don't find him cute)
Well, this year Sea Jam was attended by myself, Fernie, Brian and Jing Yang (taking classes). We shared the hut for 2 nights and its not too bad. Last year as we did not attend Sea Jam, we just booked the next door chalet (more class) and of cos more expensive for a night and really felt like, we are not very involved in Sea Jam
Well for those who is not aware, Sea Jam is an annual lindy hop dance camp organised by a dance studio in Singapore. Dancers from all over the world will come down to Singapore where we will learn new techniques and styles from the reowned teachers and of cos, have a cultural exchange. Dance classes will be conducted everyday of the weekend (Sat and Sun) and we will dance from 9am to 12am+ (my gosh, more than 12hrs of dancing!)can u imagine how crazy this is!
Anyway, when we started as juniors and amateurs in this dance, we were full of enthusiam to attending Sea Jam. But now, i guess we have pretty much grow out of it as there isnt really much avenue to dance Lindy in Singapore and people are starting to disappear from Swing Fling (a weekly social dance event) and hence, it can be rather demoralising.
Not sure if we will still continue going to Sea Jam. Will have to weigh the odds when the 'time' comes.
Anyway, here's the photos
Well, this year Sea Jam was attended by myself, Fernie, Brian and Jing Yang (taking classes). We shared the hut for 2 nights and its not too bad. Last year as we did not attend Sea Jam, we just booked the next door chalet (more class) and of cos more expensive for a night and really felt like, we are not very involved in Sea Jam
Well for those who is not aware, Sea Jam is an annual lindy hop dance camp organised by a dance studio in Singapore. Dancers from all over the world will come down to Singapore where we will learn new techniques and styles from the reowned teachers and of cos, have a cultural exchange. Dance classes will be conducted everyday of the weekend (Sat and Sun) and we will dance from 9am to 12am+ (my gosh, more than 12hrs of dancing!)can u imagine how crazy this is!
Anyway, when we started as juniors and amateurs in this dance, we were full of enthusiam to attending Sea Jam. But now, i guess we have pretty much grow out of it as there isnt really much avenue to dance Lindy in Singapore and people are starting to disappear from Swing Fling (a weekly social dance event) and hence, it can be rather demoralising.
Not sure if we will still continue going to Sea Jam. Will have to weigh the odds when the 'time' comes.
Anyway, here's the photos
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Very Interesting and Thought Provoking
I received this in a mail and am quoting this here because i really find this very true and good
One day all the employees reached the office and they saw a big adviceon the door on which it was written:"Yesterday the person who has been hindering your growth in this company passed away. We invite you to join the funeral in the room that has beenprepared in the gym".
In the beginning, they all got sad for the death of one of theircolleagues, but after a while they started getting curious to know who was that man who hindered the growth of his colleagues and the company itself.
The excitement in the gym was such that security agents were ordered tocontrol the crowd within the room.
The more people reached the coffin, the more the excitement heated up.Everyone thought: "Who is this guy who was hindering my progress? Well,at least he died!".
One by one the thrilled employees got closer to the co ffin, and when they looked inside it, they suddenly became speechless. They stood nearbythe coffin, shocked and in silence, as if someone had touched thedeepest part of their soul.
There was a mirror inside the coffin: everyone who looked inside it could see himself.
There was also a sign next to the mirror that said:"There is only one person who is capable to set limits to your growth:it is YOU.
You are the only person who can revolutionize your life. You are the only person who can influence your happiness, your realization and yoursuccess. You are the only person who can help yourself.
Your life does not change when your boss changes, when your friends change, when your parents change, when your partner changes, when yourcompany changes. Your life changes when YOU change, when you go beyond your limiting beliefs, when you realize that you are the only one responsible for your life.
"The most important relationship you can have, is the one you have with yourself"
Examine yourself, watch yourself. Don't be afraid of difficulties, impossibilities and losses: be a winner, build yourself and your reality.
The world is like a mirror: it gives back to anyone the reflection of the thoughts in which one has strongly believed.
The world and your reality are like mirrors laying in a coffin, which show to any individual the death of his divine capability to imagine and create his happiness and his success.
It's the way you face Life that makes the difference. Have a nice day!
Kudos to the writer
One day all the employees reached the office and they saw a big adviceon the door on which it was written:"Yesterday the person who has been hindering your growth in this company passed away. We invite you to join the funeral in the room that has beenprepared in the gym".
In the beginning, they all got sad for the death of one of theircolleagues, but after a while they started getting curious to know who was that man who hindered the growth of his colleagues and the company itself.
The excitement in the gym was such that security agents were ordered tocontrol the crowd within the room.
The more people reached the coffin, the more the excitement heated up.Everyone thought: "Who is this guy who was hindering my progress? Well,at least he died!".
One by one the thrilled employees got closer to the co ffin, and when they looked inside it, they suddenly became speechless. They stood nearbythe coffin, shocked and in silence, as if someone had touched thedeepest part of their soul.
There was a mirror inside the coffin: everyone who looked inside it could see himself.
There was also a sign next to the mirror that said:"There is only one person who is capable to set limits to your growth:it is YOU.
You are the only person who can revolutionize your life. You are the only person who can influence your happiness, your realization and yoursuccess. You are the only person who can help yourself.
Your life does not change when your boss changes, when your friends change, when your parents change, when your partner changes, when yourcompany changes. Your life changes when YOU change, when you go beyond your limiting beliefs, when you realize that you are the only one responsible for your life.
"The most important relationship you can have, is the one you have with yourself"
Examine yourself, watch yourself. Don't be afraid of difficulties, impossibilities and losses: be a winner, build yourself and your reality.
The world is like a mirror: it gives back to anyone the reflection of the thoughts in which one has strongly believed.
The world and your reality are like mirrors laying in a coffin, which show to any individual the death of his divine capability to imagine and create his happiness and his success.
It's the way you face Life that makes the difference. Have a nice day!
Kudos to the writer
Sunday, March 02, 2008
P.S I love u + Music and Lyrics
Just went to watch PS I love you with the 3 turtles. It was an interesting experience
1. We sat along the aisle, each on a row. My first time doing that cos the seats were selling fast and the only seats available for us was the 2nd row from the front. Given the time constraint, had to act fast and hence, we just bought aisle seat.....
2. We all cried. It was vivid when we left the cinema. Eyes watery and slightly swollen. I was glad i came with the gals. Its always nice to find people having the same thoughts after a show and not with those guys that will laugh at us. Guys!
3. I like the show. Such scenarios will only happen in movies, but its always heartwarming that your love one, one that knows he is leaving the world, leaving his loved one, will plan a whole year of 'events' for the living one. Its definitely not healthy to live and keep having the hope of receiving another letter from the deceased loved one, yet its such a magical touch to know that though he is no longer there, one can still feel his existence.
Then when i went home, i started the DVD on the second love story. Music and Lyrics.
Music and Lyrics was introduced to me by Francis. I listen to both the demo and the actual version and boy, i like the demo version. though the singing is not as good, there is the special element in that version. Good feel.
And after watching the show, I realised i needed inspiration. Just like what the lyrics say. Inspiration to do stuff. Inspiration to live happily.....Im in search of it now.
Anyway, here's the two songs that i really like in this music and lyrics show. Enjoy
1. We sat along the aisle, each on a row. My first time doing that cos the seats were selling fast and the only seats available for us was the 2nd row from the front. Given the time constraint, had to act fast and hence, we just bought aisle seat.....
2. We all cried. It was vivid when we left the cinema. Eyes watery and slightly swollen. I was glad i came with the gals. Its always nice to find people having the same thoughts after a show and not with those guys that will laugh at us. Guys!
3. I like the show. Such scenarios will only happen in movies, but its always heartwarming that your love one, one that knows he is leaving the world, leaving his loved one, will plan a whole year of 'events' for the living one. Its definitely not healthy to live and keep having the hope of receiving another letter from the deceased loved one, yet its such a magical touch to know that though he is no longer there, one can still feel his existence.
Then when i went home, i started the DVD on the second love story. Music and Lyrics.
Music and Lyrics was introduced to me by Francis. I listen to both the demo and the actual version and boy, i like the demo version. though the singing is not as good, there is the special element in that version. Good feel.
And after watching the show, I realised i needed inspiration. Just like what the lyrics say. Inspiration to do stuff. Inspiration to live happily.....Im in search of it now.
Anyway, here's the two songs that i really like in this music and lyrics show. Enjoy
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