Zhang Zhen Yue's and Free Night concert 16Feb08

Went to the concert held at Esplanade concert hall with Jeffany and Joey.

1. This is my first time watching a concert at Esplanade. And being Zhang Zhen Yue and free night (a rock band), it was an unusual location.
2. The concert started on time (at 7.30pm. The one thing i liked about watching any musicals and concert at Esplanade is their reputation for punctuality in starting on time)
3. He had a 4 piece band with a drummer, a bass, a guitarist and a keyboardist. A simple set up with nothing fanciful, just nice music
4. There is this fan with a "站" word (Stand in mandarin) and whenever she wanted all to standing, she would turn around and display the stand word and all of the audience started standing
5. MC Hotdog got everyone 'high' with his mix of rap and hits (我爱台妹）with ah yue
6. Ah Yue is humorous
7. The gang was dressed casually. A sighting that's rather rare in normal concerts (normal meaning those concerts with lots of clothes changes)
8. As it was an unplugged concert, they do things very impromptu. Eg, getting the keyboardist to sing (boy, he's good man.), had impromptu 模仿show of another band
9. No encore. Ah yue do not believe in it
10. He had an autograph session after the concert and his albums and souveniers were selling hot due to that
11. I took closed-up photos of the autograph session
12. The concert ended at 9.30pm

In summary, i enjoyed the concert. Its simplicity and impromptu makes the concert very uncommercial and very natural. I think most music "players" have this special touch. And i think they did a great job....

Here's the photos....

Zhang Zhen Yue's concert - autograph session

Man......Some really hopeless

Making such a statement might sound that im being too extreme, but it's true.

I've seen a man, got into trouble and claim to do things for our good. Just like in movies, that always happen when a man of the house get into trouble, financially, and always say "i do it for the family"

To me, its your choice. We all have a choice. And its not honorable to claim and assume whatever one do is for the good of the other person unless you have asked that person, if that is what he/she wants.

Lame.

I've seen how the same man, can strike a lottery, claim to give the family each some money as savings only to finish all he has won in a year, ended in big trouble and then asked that the money be returned with interest cause there and then, he has left the money to us to earn interest only. Bullshit. He can still earn interest by leaving all his cash in his OWN bank.

I"ve seen how this man can make a big fuss insisting that i bank my first busary into his bank to pay his studies and only to find in months or a year later, that he took that money for his personal use and claim that he used it for his emergency. Bullshit

I've seen how this man change from being pitiful about taking the money that his wife have kept at home cause he needs the money, to "you go report police lor", he exclaims.

I've heard of how this man, ask money from his mother who is not working and poor while he slept most of the time in a day, go womanising (I saw the photos), claims that his friends treats him better than his family, claims that he rather take care of a dog than his family cos a dog will wag his tail when it sees the owner returns and many more....

I'm tired of his nonsense and will only know 1 thing. That no matter how much i know he did for us when we are younger or older, the negative things that he does will always remain in my heart, in a corner. Same as my relationship, whatever he do will not change things, now.....

I secretly hope that he can be happier and if leaving us makes him feel happier and he can survive, i hope he make this choice. Better for both sides

Photos updated

1. Photos taken outside Marina Square's toilet with Jiaen and Adelyn

Day with Jiaen and Adelyn

2. Chinese New Year

CNY 2008

3. Don's wedding

Don's Wedding

4. A day at Rediffsion and KTV with Rong Biao and Adelyn

Photo taken with Adelyn, Rong Biao and William

5. CNY at Popo's house

CNY at Popo's house

6. CNY at Mrs Lim's place 08

CNY at Mrs Lim's house

Ironic situation in my life

I was feeling down that day after BW call me to say i set a trap for him. I was down for the simplest reasons

1. I was sabotaged
2. No one could help me to save myself out of the situation
3. I know i was alone
4. I start to wonder if i've been bad to myself

and hence, i needed to talk to someone. I sms Bok and MX. I waited. No reply.....

5 mins......

10mins......

My handphone rang with an incoming sms notification

Name shown......Beng Chye

I was crying then.....feel sad for myself....

He wanted to pass me stuff he bought from the CNY market in Chinatown.

I braced myself, wipe my tears, got ready and open the door to meet him. He passed me the stuff and left.

My handphone rang with anothe incoming sms notification

"You can choose not to reply. Are you crying?"

Well, at that point of time, i really feel worse. Soo ironic. He's not there when i need him the most. And he's there when i shouldnt really be talking to him....

So in the end, i chose to talk to him. At least better than nothing.

MX and Bok replied him about an hour later. I was not really ok then. Felt better but still not completely ok...i know i can do it and must do it.....

At that moment, i learnt that friends can be there for you. But not always. One have to learn to face the 'music' alone. Learnt to handle your own emotions. And it'll soon be ok.

I learnt to be stronger. Ganbatte!

Never say die without trying!!!

That was what BC sms me to express his will and goal.

He have been trying hard to win me back with constant sms contact and whatever he could do. Ask me out for movies, buy me my favourite new year must have (melon seeds and pomelo, a tradition we do every year). Of cos not too the extent of being a pest

I can really see and feel the effort.

But feel sad that all these come after the break up.

Maybe i din notice his efforts enough during our courtship.

But having said all i could, i can say that i can really be cruel. That once i've made up my mind, i'll stick to it. Maybe one day my mindset will change, we'll see.

However for now, i just want to take a break, feel more, do more, and let nature take its course.

That day while i was looking back and counting, i realise how bo sim i am. I totally miscount my courtship years. Its actually a 6 plus year relationship. Failed gf. How bo sim i am to the relationship. That is one reason that i felt that i should let go. It is never fair to treat the relationship like this.

And being too comfortable is a 'sin'. Maybe not to others, but to me, it is. When one is too comfy and not making effort and take things for granted, you start to slack. Things should never be taken for granted. I don't like it when others do that to me. But i din manage to prevent this same situation to my relationship.

I'm sort of glad that i've made a decision. Be it good or bad, its my choice. Learn to accept your choice and move on. One will grow better.

Ms Chee, Ganbatte!!!

Chinese New Year!!!

Well well, we always like CNY don't we, especially for the 'Younger' generation....but i realised that as times goes by, as we start to age, CNY is really a time to gather. The red packets become secondary for the singles. (married people will have to burn a hole in their pocket....that's why the secondary only applies to singles....)

This CNY is the first time where i would expect questions on where is BC. Well, it happens to be a time where i could officially tell them im single. Some were shocked, one thought i was joking, as for Mrs Lim (my secondary school teacher), she hug me and wish me luck in my future endeavor. Tears fall in my heart.

Anyway, on the first day of CNY, all my dad's relatives came to my house as my grandma is at my place and as usual, after going to admiralty (grandaunt place), instead of going to da gu ma's place, my da gu ma and cousins came back to my place as we need to settle grandma's dinner.

Afterwhich, we played mahjong with Kelvin, Li fen, mum and myself. As the result shows, i've never really lost money in my house but for the 2 cousins, they lost almost 20 bucks each in a 3 hours 1 game session. Sis missed these sessions after being married and giving birth to the 2 kids. I guess, you lose some and win some. Just have to accept when you reach another stage in life.

We have fun though....I can sort of sense that grandma wants to play but we din offer though.

The 2nd day, went to mum's side....i was prepared to announce my status but only jeannette asked me. And i realised later that they know beforehand of it. Sis sort of hinted to them and Im sort of glad in a way. I wasnt really prepared for all the questions.

Hence, the two days of CNY just ended in a flash.....we had photos taken though......all were excited to take photos of the twins. I even made a bet with Kelvin and Chee Peng. That i will give them SGD1000 if the any of the 2 gals allow them to carry without crying. I had fun looking at them trying but as i've dared to make the bet, im sure the twins would not fail me. and true enough, i din lose. Phew.....

Overall, not too bad a year.....will upload the photos soon....

Got Sabotage by my team members.....A lesson learnt

Sigh, its Bernard (BW) case again.

In short, someone in my team told BW that i wasn't alone when i called BW yesterday. Got a shock when BW called me this morning. Told me that he is very upset and that i set up a 'trap' for him to fall in.

It all happened when he sms me yesterday that he wanted to have a change of team and conveniently exclude Linda (YL)who's in his current team.

I felt that they both have Xin1 Jie2. So i talk to Elisa (ET) and YL in the morning to find out more. ET being on good terms with BW told me the many things that BW told her. YL was ok with BW and just not pleased with the certain things that he do.

Afterwhich, it seems BW was eagerly trying to know what is happening as ET has told BW that she has told me everything and he better be honest.

So thinking that the team is very affected by BW's constant sms and call, i pn all to ask them to refer BW to me if he needs to know anything. Then i ask, "who has spoken to BW?" Knowing that someone did, i ask. However, no one has enough guts to admit. I really dunno what's wrong with letting me know but yah, Rayve (RC) finally admitted through pn that he spoke to BW.

Afterwhich, i called BW. As i was sitting near to my team, it wasnt convenient to tok to him. I then went to a conference room to do that and ask Shelby (KS) to sit in as well. I wanted KS to understand this thing and noe what is wrong. Janise (JC) came in to speak to me. And hence, the '3' of us called BW. He only knows that its me in the room and that throughout the conversation, he did ask me once if there was anyone beside too. I said no, as i din tell him then so i shouldnt admit.

This prove to be a bad choice as he started to say things about YL and JC and JC was in the room!

The conversation was started with the intention to know what is wrong with YL and him and i was really caught by surprise when he started to tok about JC and YL....

Die.

He called me this morning to tell me he's VERY upset that i set a trap for him.

I spend 2 hours toking to him to resolve this thing.

It's amazing how things turn and went out of hand.

A lesson learnt. Things should be more transparent and i guess my worst mistake is to let JC stay in the room to listen.

Hope everything is fine on Monday when he's back from his leave. But DUN LET ME FIND OUT THE CULPRIT. I'll "kill" him for causing unneccessary trouble!