Never say die without trying!!!

That was what BC sms me to express his will and goal.

He have been trying hard to win me back with constant sms contact and whatever he could do. Ask me out for movies, buy me my favourite new year must have (melon seeds and pomelo, a tradition we do every year). Of cos not too the extent of being a pest

I can really see and feel the effort.

But feel sad that all these come after the break up.

Maybe i din notice his efforts enough during our courtship.

But having said all i could, i can say that i can really be cruel. That once i've made up my mind, i'll stick to it. Maybe one day my mindset will change, we'll see.

However for now, i just want to take a break, feel more, do more, and let nature take its course.

That day while i was looking back and counting, i realise how bo sim i am. I totally miscount my courtship years. Its actually a 6 plus year relationship. Failed gf. How bo sim i am to the relationship. That is one reason that i felt that i should let go. It is never fair to treat the relationship like this.

And being too comfortable is a 'sin'. Maybe not to others, but to me, it is. When one is too comfy and not making effort and take things for granted, you start to slack. Things should never be taken for granted. I don't like it when others do that to me. But i din manage to prevent this same situation to my relationship.

I'm sort of glad that i've made a decision. Be it good or bad, its my choice. Learn to accept your choice and move on. One will grow better.

Ms Chee, Ganbatte!!!