Ironic situation in my life

I was feeling down that day after BW call me to say i set a trap for him. I was down for the simplest reasons

1. I was sabotaged
2. No one could help me to save myself out of the situation
3. I know i was alone
4. I start to wonder if i've been bad to myself

and hence, i needed to talk to someone. I sms Bok and MX. I waited. No reply.....

5 mins......

10mins......

My handphone rang with an incoming sms notification

Name shown......Beng Chye

I was crying then.....feel sad for myself....

He wanted to pass me stuff he bought from the CNY market in Chinatown.

I braced myself, wipe my tears, got ready and open the door to meet him. He passed me the stuff and left.

My handphone rang with anothe incoming sms notification

"You can choose not to reply. Are you crying?"

Well, at that point of time, i really feel worse. Soo ironic. He's not there when i need him the most. And he's there when i shouldnt really be talking to him....

So in the end, i chose to talk to him. At least better than nothing.

MX and Bok replied him about an hour later. I was not really ok then. Felt better but still not completely ok...i know i can do it and must do it.....

At that moment, i learnt that friends can be there for you. But not always. One have to learn to face the 'music' alone. Learnt to handle your own emotions. And it'll soon be ok.

I learnt to be stronger. Ganbatte!