Bought a deck of oracle cards today, The Wisdom of Avalon by Colette Baron-Reid.
Was playing with the turtle gang and the guys. They seem curious at first and they urge each other to have a go. However, after each reading, i realised they were having fun and not serious with the cards. A little offended but, guess, its ok bah
Anyway, i did a single card reading and once i got the card, i was a little shocked. I've drawn a forgiveness card.
The card reads,
"Drawing this marker says that you must now search your heart for any unresolved resentment, anger, or disagreements between u n another. If you're still hurt or angry about another's behaviour, or if there are circumstances in your life that you resent, this is a time when it's crucial to release the negative energy surrounding those situations. Resisting this will only impede your growth and draw more unwanted experiences to you.
Resentment and anger are emotions that actually bind you and hook you to the events that cause your suffering, keeping them alive inside you, draining you of your life force and inner light. Nothing good comes from hate, anger, or resentment. Peace can only come through forgiveness, when you release all that binds you to negativity. Perhaps you need to forgive yourself for placing unrealistic expectations on your situation resulting in a self-sabotaging perception tainted by perfectionism.
Look at the world and see how the lack of forgiveness feeds the turmoil and suffering around you. Forgiveness is the key to freedom and peace......and it starsts with you.
This marker requires you to practice forgiveness so that you can be an active part of spreading peace and beauty throughout this troubled world"
Guess the question i ask? "How can i get over the guilt i have for breaking up with him?"
Soo true a reading.....
and i regreted doing this reading in front of my frens. Cos i was asked what question i asked and i resented answering that cos it resulted in one of them asking me why i had break up with him. And i hear the magic words again. "Then it must be your fault lor"
Though harmless, it hurts.
Forgiveness, i will digest the reading and practise it.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
My reading using oracle cards
recently, got myself involved with ff, kalai and b on oracle cards.
ff sent me an online url to kalai's deck of oracle cards.
I did a reading and ask, "How should i handle my relationships?"
Did a three card reading that gave me the following answer
My past - The Clanconer - illusion, delusion, lust, projection, clear sight
The starter reading states
It is not good to make decisions when blinded by lust. Whether it is lust for a person, a thing, or an idea, we need to pause and take our time before making actual commitments. We need to read the fine print, check out the foundations, get a mechanic to test the so-beautiful secondhand car. If we are considering buying something, we can refuse to let ourselves be rushed into it and take time for making sure that it really what we think it is. If we are considering making a commitment to other people, we need to take our time and really get to know them much better. This is another lesson in seeing the truth behind a beglamoured surface, though in this case it is we who have cast the glamour
My present - The Singer of Intuition - Perceptiveness, Oracular powers, awareness, trust
The starter reading states
In a reading, the presence of the Singer of Intuition indicates that information is available to us if we will just listen to our own inner knowing. Perhaps we have already heard it, and still doubt our subtle senses. The Singer says this is the time to really listen to our intuition. What is the querent's own feeling, hunch, or intuition about this situation? It is desirable that the querent should seek solitude, meditate, and practice stillness and patience. This is a time for inward focus, a time to open the inner door to intuition (there are a lot of 'in's in this sentence because important answers are to be found within the querent himself). The presence of this Singer in card spread radiates special illumination and insight on the other cards around it
My future - The Singer of Transfiguration - Transformation, transcendance, metamorphasis
My starter reading states
Jackpot! This card in a reading signifies the joy of success after a time of struggle. A new way of life has been accepted and is being integrated. A sense of inner peace is growing. The struggle has all been worth it. This is a time of consolidation and joy, and is both a reward for past achievements and a time of preparation for the next climb up the path
I especially like the last card, i should right? its a happy ending....I like it for the fact that it seems to know that i've struggled. And im glad it tells me i will have a happy ending....like in all tv dramas.....hehe
ff sent me an online url to kalai's deck of oracle cards.
I did a reading and ask, "How should i handle my relationships?"
Did a three card reading that gave me the following answer
My past - The Clanconer - illusion, delusion, lust, projection, clear sight
The starter reading states
It is not good to make decisions when blinded by lust. Whether it is lust for a person, a thing, or an idea, we need to pause and take our time before making actual commitments. We need to read the fine print, check out the foundations, get a mechanic to test the so-beautiful secondhand car. If we are considering buying something, we can refuse to let ourselves be rushed into it and take time for making sure that it really what we think it is. If we are considering making a commitment to other people, we need to take our time and really get to know them much better. This is another lesson in seeing the truth behind a beglamoured surface, though in this case it is we who have cast the glamour
My present - The Singer of Intuition - Perceptiveness, Oracular powers, awareness, trust
The starter reading states
In a reading, the presence of the Singer of Intuition indicates that information is available to us if we will just listen to our own inner knowing. Perhaps we have already heard it, and still doubt our subtle senses. The Singer says this is the time to really listen to our intuition. What is the querent's own feeling, hunch, or intuition about this situation? It is desirable that the querent should seek solitude, meditate, and practice stillness and patience. This is a time for inward focus, a time to open the inner door to intuition (there are a lot of 'in's in this sentence because important answers are to be found within the querent himself). The presence of this Singer in card spread radiates special illumination and insight on the other cards around it
My future - The Singer of Transfiguration - Transformation, transcendance, metamorphasis
My starter reading states
Jackpot! This card in a reading signifies the joy of success after a time of struggle. A new way of life has been accepted and is being integrated. A sense of inner peace is growing. The struggle has all been worth it. This is a time of consolidation and joy, and is both a reward for past achievements and a time of preparation for the next climb up the path
I especially like the last card, i should right? its a happy ending....I like it for the fact that it seems to know that i've struggled. And im glad it tells me i will have a happy ending....like in all tv dramas.....hehe
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
New Year Resolution
Seems like i have been offending my close frens by my actions. So far, one each....
Over the year, i have been more self centered. Focusing on my own growth and how i feel. Need to start to spend time knowing people. Be concerned about them.
Show my Tender, Loving and Care side. Im afterall, a cancerian.
Cancerians are known to be motherly.
Let me find that side of me back and share that with all.....
Over the year, i have been more self centered. Focusing on my own growth and how i feel. Need to start to spend time knowing people. Be concerned about them.
Show my Tender, Loving and Care side. Im afterall, a cancerian.
Cancerians are known to be motherly.
Let me find that side of me back and share that with all.....
Ended......
I told him what i needed to.
He say he will let his heart die. Maybe when he forget about me then will he forgive me.
I cried. Badly.
It's painful. And i did it again. A second time.
I guess, that's the end......
He say he will let his heart die. Maybe when he forget about me then will he forgive me.
I cried. Badly.
It's painful. And i did it again. A second time.
I guess, that's the end......
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Some guys are lame. Try too hard
Recently got into this online site to know more people. Its simple. Leave your photo and some information and others can view your profile and drop a wink or message.
I've got some messages and winks left in my inbox and was curious about them. I view their profile, reply some and chat on msn with some guys
Basically, i realised that most, do not have much to say. Or their questions are standard. I classify them as standard simply after chatting with a few and the same questions asked
I've got some messages and winks left in my inbox and was curious about them. I view their profile, reply some and chat on msn with some guys
Basically, i realised that most, do not have much to say. Or their questions are standard. I classify them as standard simply after chatting with a few and the same questions asked
- Height, weight?
- Single?
- Wana exchange HP numbers?
Boring....it might be such questions are common but well, it doesnt impressed me.
There was one who asked if he could go after me. Nuts. Its only the first time talking to him
The same guy always reply the a single word answer. Question asked, "how was your day", he replied "fine". I thought this is an open ended question that deserves more explanation?Diaoz.....how to continue to chat?
Another simply reply in caps"THEN Y U COME NET. LOOK FOR BF, FREN OR WAT" when i reply prior that i din understand a message he wrote. I then told him it was rude to reply in caps. Guess his reply? He said he tot i was blind so write bigger. Slap him man....
Sigh....lame....
My BGR
have not been blogging for sometime simply cos i have not felt the urge to do it. I realised i enjoyed blogging more when i want to share something or when i have something to say.
Recently, i have, in a way been asking close frens about the comment i receive. I wanted to reply. But my intended reply seems rude to them.
I was angry. I appear offline on msn in the middle of the conversation and reply that i din want to talk about it. I shouldnt.
I have not been making things easy for myself and my friends i guess. Friends have gave me lots of advice and advising me not to be in the grey area. I should be definite and sure of what i want and make it clear to suitors.
In recent conversations, my fren mentioned i am confused. Another mentioned in a call today that its hard for all when one is not sure of what she wants.夜长梦多.
I was angry for the fact that i find the focus is on him. I seemed rude, dun leave him dangling (in case it becomes an ugly scene next time), i must be the one that breaks up the relationship and all.
I know im the bad guy. I initiate the breakup. And because of that, i seem to be getting attention that i did not expect. Or i led people to give me attention that i din want. I cant handle this well. I cant.
I dun want to handle wat people say. Cos i cant get the acknowledge and comfort i wanted from sharing with them. I understand their good intentions. I know. But i cant handle it.
I've decided. Let's not talk about him anymore. Im not gonna talk about him anymore. Cos i cant handle people's comments and i know i will feel hurt. When im not in the state to handle it, i should learn to not tok about it. You might say im coward, its ok. You might think avoiding doesnt help, its ok.
Time will heal the wound. And it seems 1 year is simply not enough.
Recently, i have, in a way been asking close frens about the comment i receive. I wanted to reply. But my intended reply seems rude to them.
I was angry. I appear offline on msn in the middle of the conversation and reply that i din want to talk about it. I shouldnt.
I have not been making things easy for myself and my friends i guess. Friends have gave me lots of advice and advising me not to be in the grey area. I should be definite and sure of what i want and make it clear to suitors.
In recent conversations, my fren mentioned i am confused. Another mentioned in a call today that its hard for all when one is not sure of what she wants.夜长梦多.
I was angry for the fact that i find the focus is on him. I seemed rude, dun leave him dangling (in case it becomes an ugly scene next time), i must be the one that breaks up the relationship and all.
I know im the bad guy. I initiate the breakup. And because of that, i seem to be getting attention that i did not expect. Or i led people to give me attention that i din want. I cant handle this well. I cant.
I dun want to handle wat people say. Cos i cant get the acknowledge and comfort i wanted from sharing with them. I understand their good intentions. I know. But i cant handle it.
I've decided. Let's not talk about him anymore. Im not gonna talk about him anymore. Cos i cant handle people's comments and i know i will feel hurt. When im not in the state to handle it, i should learn to not tok about it. You might say im coward, its ok. You might think avoiding doesnt help, its ok.
Time will heal the wound. And it seems 1 year is simply not enough.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
范瑋琪 - 沒那麼愛他
Was listening to this song and find it very meaningful. First time i could really relate to the story behind the song.....A friend's advice to another fren's failed relationship...Esp like "是习惯还是爱 不放心还是不甘心 只有你自己知道解答"..enjoy..
你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
但有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
但有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
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