Kelvin's wedding 24Nov08

went to the wrong hotel.....i swear that i heard Kelvin mentioned M but no....it was at MM. I had to carry my laptop in my dress and walk across. Boy am i glad that its in the same location.....

The night was ok, generally. Just that the person who played the video used the wrong program on my laptop to play the montage. So the video started with no sound, then overlap sound. But it wasnt the worst.

Dad was busy drinking red wine at the table. With lifen's bf, everyone.....he was happy. But drinking too much. He literally finish each cup at a go. Well the service wasnt that fantastic but i was ok with it. Dad wasnt pleased that it took long to refill his cup of wine. He complain to the manager and keep talking to the manager, then the waiter. I din want the hotel to keep refilling his cup the minute it is not full. But dad doesnt like his cup not refilled. I gave up.

Then he started to tok non sensical...I was irritated. I dun want him to be drunk and i had to bring him home. The logic is, im sorta alone with dad cos though sis and bro in law were there, they had to take care of my two nieces and literally had to carry them all the way. I went over to 'calm' him and tok to him. We change his drink to plain water as we feel he really had enough. I try to tok to him and he was mumbling in a non sensical speech. I suddenly had this thought of fear. If he will one day fall sick and need constant attention, im gonna be really alone.

Suddenly he wanted to go to the gents. And simply did not want ANY support. He walked and fell. People start to look at us. No one helped me. I was alone and was trying to signal to my cousins to come and help. My bro in law saw me with my dad, came to help with han han in his hands. How to help with my niece in his hands? wat if han han is injured accidentally or wat?

Then my cousins came. We literally follow dad to the toilet. My cousins went in. I waited outside. By then, i started to cry. I dun wan him to make a scene. I dun wan to have to 'carry' him home. Y cant he just know his limits and watch his drinking habit? How many times must this happen?

By then, i couldnt control myself and sneak into the ladies to cry. Suddenly lifen came in to look for me. Pass me my bag and laptop and mentioned sis had called a taxi. We got into the cab but i was still tearing. Irritated and hate the feeling

When we wanted the cab to stop us at our block first, dad insist that he stop before and just shove the taxi driver some money, and alighted. I was in my heels, nice dress, teary eyes, with my laptop, supporting him back....mum came down and i shove her my laptop. Dad was scolding away. His self pity self took over him again....ARGH....

he fell when he step out of the lift. Luckily, he was alright. Left him on his bed and change his top.

By then, i was totally exhausted. Din eat the dessert, din have enough rest from the wedding prior, totally disgusted with his behaviour, in conclusion, irritated.

Sis and mum din understand why i am soo affected.

In simple words, i will be left to take care of them if anything happen. Cos sis is married. There is only soo much she can do.