have been toking to a couple of frens re. my bgr....i'm bugged for quite sometime...the thought of moving on and not drag on cos i dun seem to be fair to him...
though L.O.V.E is never fair, it has come to a point where all my consultants are telling me that i need to MOVE ON.....
we both tok about it on the eve of my bday pass midnite till the wee hours of my actual day....we cried...he told me that he's sure that im the ONE....but not sure if he can accept my style of living after marriage...
it seems like he DO think about our relationship, and that he knows we are not ready for marriage...i should be considered lucky....cos if he really do proposed to me one day when we are not ready, i dunno what i'll do...
told my 5* frens before that he's not planning for our marriage in the near future...no one believes...guess this tok has confirmed that im right..that i noe where my relationship is really at...
he told me that maybe he is dragging me down....maybe we should let go and we will each be more blissful if we split our ways....deep down, i've thought of that before...just that now is the time where im really thinking about should we move on...together or individually...
from the tok that nite, i noes he really loves me..he doesnt want to really change me...he changed for me....but me...sigh....i'm still the same....
the balance is tilted and the balance is no longer there....
i guess, it's time where one have to gather the courage to do something out of the comfort zone....one that will be painful...very....but one that will make two lives better.....
maybe, just maybe, i should convince myself once again that if we are really fated to be together, we will be in the future as well....
i'm tearing...wetting my t-shirt....it's been six years since i last experience this.....let's see if i'll be able to do it this weekend....God bless.......
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