Conclusion

Hmm....guess my frens are concerned what i've finally decided to do to my relationship....

last whole week since the tok with bc, has been a thinking week for me with lots of tots, lots of crying, lots of confusion going on...i cried that day after msning my fren regards to my relationship...he told me to quit....but deep down...i just feel that something is not gng to be right with this choice....

i spoke to laopa and laoma that nite....

"can i say something harsh to you", she goes
"go ahead...", i say
"i feel that you are holding to your ego...that's y you are not makeing the move"

ah, my heart aches....maybe i am....i've always been thinking, why am i the one to always take the initiative? why? why? why?

in life, one will lose their way...feel bewiltered and confused...just soo happen, i am now in such a situation...

however, after the discussion with them that nite, they taught me something....something about relationships.....

relationships is nothing but communication....to make things work for each other....to look for a person that is willing to go the extra step, to keep trying to make the relationship work...

when one is lost, the focus should never be on the problem. Who's at fault or whatsoever...cos in this way, nothing will ever get out of it....the important thing is the solution....how one should do to make the relationship work....

relationship is also about asking the right thing at the right time....knowing the difference between man and woman and accepting the other as he/she is....

"your next relationship will be the same if you never try hard for it..."hmm..i've never tot of this....maybe its true....and that's y i'm in 5 relationships till date....nothing to be proud of....but something really true about this statement....i guess, i should do something about the relationship...to convince myself to really make time for it...put effort in it...keep trying....

when it really fails after trying upteen times....then its ok to let go....

it's a coward move to let go even without trying......

well, in the end, nothing bad happens this weekend....i've decided to start my engine and work hard for it....learn to really love...

Wish me luck....