its the b....word again

I'm still revolving around the tots that the person b's email brought to me.

The past 2 days, i have spoken to fern and wz about b's email. we talk a lot. I cried, knowingly to one, might be ignorant to the other. I guess, i suddenly felt i lost confidence.

I've always make it a point to go for lindy even though i finish work at 9+. My colleagues call me crazy. I told them that although im tired, going lindy makes me happy. I've been spending 10bucks every nite i've gone down just on cab alone and be there with the gang for slightly more than an hour. And imagine for that 1+ hour, from fling, till we walk to the bus stop, till we walk to supper, till we decided to go home, I've gotten myself in a little unhappiness. What i've thought could destress myself, have causes negative energy around my frens and now in turn, have caused me to be a little stressed. Im not too sure of but i can say and what not.

I've heard a lot, thought about it, and decided that i should give myself a pat on the shoulder and gave some time to myself. Before i think about what i want to do in future, when im still not clear about how i should handle my job, i just want support from my close ones and not anything that is stressful to me and do things that makes me happy. Having say much, most importantly, i want to take a break from Lindy.

Maybe, from the late hours, i've always been tired when im there in lindy and i tend to complain a lot. I don't know. But one thing i'm sure of, since i can't change my job for the time being or i'm having the fear of saying the wrong thing, i've decided to take a break from it. It's my time to take a break from it.

What b say is not wrong. Wz say that it's being frank on his part. He is telling me what he does not like to hear. Similarly, i din like the way it came across. But i would never tell me friend that. (If i remember clearly) I thought it's rude. But it's ok. We certainly can't stop what others want to say. What's more, there is certain truth in his words. I shouldnt complain too much.

Having made this decision, i believe i should have more time. More time to rest, and to think, and be happier.