Last day

Yesterday was my last day at work. It was a weird feeling. Prior to the last day, i was counting down the days in my msn. Last 5 days. last 4 days....

Till the last day at work, i was counting down. I wasnt really glad to leave or looking forward to the last day as there wasnt a strong push factor that makes me want to leave my workplace that soon.

But it was a good choice i made. At times, when one is too used to or comfortable at a place, our growth stagnant. By saying growth, it might not mean having opportunities to grow. But i meant the pace i set for myself.

I used to have a strong urge to do things. But i realised that as days passed, i was slowing myself down. The urge for growth was not as great. I was still doing my stuff, but doing the bare minimum. I would still reply emails, push for partners to correct their workflow but the feeling was different.

I know that i need to go. And having yet another opportunity helps me to make my decision.

It was a better offer, a new environment, a new setup.

I would not know if its a good step until i try. And i did.

Amazingly, i did not even sign the contract for the new job prior tendering my resignation. Somehow, i have a feeling that it'll be ok. Friends and loved ones around me urge me to have things settled as soon as possible. To protect our own well being.

For me, I felt that i'm in safe hands. What can happened? The most, i'll be without a job. If that really happens, yes, i'll be financially tight. But I would have learn something. That the new company is not worth me working for it.

Sounds too hopeful or naive huh? But at times, when we try too hard to make things work or gets it done, there is something missing in that.

Anyway, i was trying to tie up my loose ends at work, lunch, then finish with my colleague L who is taking over me, go for my exit interview, take photos with colleagues and bid goodbye. Meet my bf and enjoy a good show at the esplanade.

The day wasnt as smooth or relax as i thought. L was nervous i felt, asking me questions i couldnt answer and y would i have all the answers? She was panicky at my departure. Afterall, she was a project manager too long that she prolly couldnt be technical or in depth any faster. It din help when i've set a benchmark for the role.

I was and am a technical person. Someone that can go into the details and be very technical about the things i do. I helped and pave the way for the people that i worked with, but might have set a tough path for L.

I guess, it wasnt my problem anymore and she will be alright in time. Sooner or later. She'll be fine.

My exit interview was ok. Quick and pretty simple. I expected the things i would face. Signing a document i never believe in but just for clearance sake, its ok. I took photos with all my colleagues (i try to) and say goodbye. Teared a little when one of them tear. But all in all, it was good. It was a good feeling to receive well wishes from people.

Together with the well wishes, photos, and some gifts i received, i left the place i worked for 5+ years. All happened on the 26Mar09.

Goodbye. And look forward to the new challenge ahead.