Over the whole week, discovered some new 'theories'
Had a talk with ff on one of the nite and realised something....i like myself better when i listen more....
Over the years, due to some things, i wanted to be the initiator..hence, through the process, i've become more independent...and definitely more impatient..and prolly because of this, i talk more than i listen...and i happily 'share' with all around me about my happenings and grumbles....and i did not realise that this will create irritation with someone....b wrote in one of the email that he do not want to listen to all the office politics and all...*wake up call* It was after the talk with ff that i realised that b was really refering to me. All the while, i've talk too much that slowly and unknowingly, realised that i know little of some of the people close to me.....
Hence, i've decided to make myself a better person by listening more....
I guess, one will only know more and benefit more by sharing and listening....
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The next topic.....
b n i seem to have reached another limit of our friendship. or i should say that, our friendship must have been a shallow one. Y? cos he din really appear to be concern about the way our friendship goes. He called ff when ff reply his email to clear the air....i've always have this feeling that b and ff and wz friendship is a deep one...one that have gone through ups and downs...one that he treasure....through his little gifts for them on their bday....i could sense it....
hence, i guess, the little MY incident that happen that night has only confirmed to me that our friendship is shallow. One that does not have common ground. ff and b has at least yoga. wz and b has the passion for jazz and the music line....me? nothing i can think of now.
Actually, does friendship needs to have a common interest between the frens in order to justify the friendship. My answer? NO! y? cos i believe that if two can be friends meeting every week for many years, they must have develop something within and deep down inside as well that justify the friendship and this development would be different from the initial idea that brought the friendship together. in me and b case. the initial idea - lindy
guess i realised that its really playing with fire when one is light hearted towards another's passion.
i've always treated lindy as an avenue for me to showcase myself. and of cos, an avenue for being socially involved. it's something i've enjoyed, especially the people element of the dance.
so in order to make myself feel better, i'm ignoring his attitude towards me. His cold....
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actually i have soo much to say, but guess, tonight is not the nite, so that's all for such inner thoughts....
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