There seem to be more flashbacks coming back to me now than when im in it. Where i used to go, what i used to do, who i used to deal with and things like that.
I realised that i have spent most of my energy minding things that friends could accompany me to do and when he is not there. KTV, Dancing, Guitar etc. Suddenly, when i went to bowl with my colleagues yesterday, i remember i used to go bowling with my friends and him. Go to play pool, arcade, movies....I could remember all the past activities i used to do.
I've seen more movies back then than now. Now, it is more of finding someone who has the same taste to watch a movie. It used to be, "I wana watch this movie, free? Free? let's go!" I hardly hear or feel such things now.
People around me seems to be more busy than i am now. People busy with travelling, with work, with staying at home, with their partner and their own activities.
I've been busy developing and growing myself, at my own pace and leaving him behind then. Now, i've been slowing down, due to financial commitments, new job scope and all. I have more time to think about things now. I have more positive energy around me now than ever. Then i start to find people being negative around me. Its weird how things turn out.
I guess, when people are more negative, all things he/she mattered are all about themselves, and when the positive energy starts to increase much more, you take a step back, and suddenly realised what you have used to take things/people for granted.
Some things, can still be changed. Others, once lost, can only be left as good memories.
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Is there only guilt now in your heart, or is there still some feeling?
U know my heart.
Or maybe you just answer this question. Interested to catch a movie?
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